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2023.03.24 14:33 Ifechuks007 Recent Grad with new job in Auto decorative manufacturing industry. Interested in ways I could apply Data science to my company.

A bit of background. I just recently graduated with a Bachelors Degree in Economics, where I took a course load somewhat heavy in Stats, math and Econometric methods. I know that's not quite data science but I see some intersections here and there, and I am still interested in learning more and going back for my masters. I got a job as a quotations/pricing analyst at a company that was recently acquired. The old company hated data and made up numbers especially prices of products. They don't even have a database management system and have folders of physical files. We are in the process of transition to a new ERP system due to the acquisition but there is no data science team. I see this as an opportunity to become the data science team and learn a lot, but I am need of direction. If you have any ideas, please let me know?
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2023.03.24 14:33 loonathefloofyfox I don't know which field to get into

So i enjoy programming a lot. Specifically c and c++. I have been unable to decide if i want to get into robotics or game dev. I lack the creativity for certain things like web design which makes me think game dev stuff might not be possible for me. Robotics is very interesting to me although i do not currently know all the required mathamatics (will be going through the mit course on this when i am not sick so should be better). I am unsure which to persue. Robotics such as for prosthetics would help many people although I'm unlikely to be good enough to get that job in the first place. Game development would be cool too but a combination of a dislike of the direction many modern games go (Activision game design and microtransactions) as well as lack of creativity might make this difficult. I do not know what I'd like to do. Stuff like ai i just find uninteresting
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2023.03.24 14:32 Aixx78 What do you think I should do?

My NW is not high ($750K). I am posting here, because i am seeking advice from people who are where I would like to be. I'm mid 40s married with 2 young kids.
I'm a Project Manager for a very high end construction firm that builds homes for the 1% of the 1%. Most of our budgets are north of $50MM and nearly all of our clients are net worth north of 1B. I would be lying if I said the envy of what these people spend money doesn't effect me.
But, my real issue is with the Owner of my company and my boss. The owner of the company is a very high net worth individual himself from a prestigious family. He has no construction background but his network of clients is a major part of the business of course. There is a COO who runs the whole show from a high level who has been my mentor for 20 years. I think he is the best construction manager in the United States - and I say that seriously.
I'm a project manager and run 2 jobs below him. We have about 4 or 5 projects company wide in progress most times. The Owner collects the big checks, the COO is partner and collects in the range of 20% of profits on top of what I'm guessing is a $800K salary. I don't get to see the bottom line, but I know the profits on my project and can do the math. I think the company nets between $3MM to $5MM a year. My projects are typically $1MM to $2MM of that.
I make between 300K and 400K per year, but I have no equity, no 401K (but yes on health insurance - big deal). I'm W-2. My wife works W-2 as well but we are in a HCOL area and kids are in good private schools. We have a good net salary but we spend a god damn fortune and it's not like we are living a life of luxury.
I'm bitter, totally unmotivated, secretly pissed, and feel trapped. One of my 2 projects has an absolutely impossible client. It's a long story that I can't really share here, but if you heard it I guarantee you would agree that he is the problem on the project. I have a very good track record besides this one.
I was told by the COO that the day is coming where the Owner is going to start giving equity to the employees. The owner is very old and once he truly retires the business doesn't need him. It's all people and no assets. My concern is that that equity will be distributed throughout the whole company and I'll end up with 3% and still feel unsatisfied.
I don't like what I've become - silently pissed off, unmotivated, resentful. I worked hard and focused for nearly 20 years in this organization. I don't show this, but I think it's becoming known and my relationship with the owner is basically one of silence and detachment. The COO I'm close with and really like.
I've looked around elsewhere and can match the salary and have 2 offers with "growth into equity" but I'm not really fond of the companies.
I'm thinking about going out on my own, but I'm tight on cash. I'm pretty sure I can go out on my own into a CM position and book some good projects quickly. I'm sure I won't be making a mill a year, but I could probably get there in 3 to 5 years. Moreover, I feel like I would be my old self again and have always felt I should be a business owner as my father and grandfather were. My fear is having a rough couple years out of the gate with the kids.
Any advice or perspective would be appreciated. Isn't some equity a realistic request after 20 years... I feel like I've been fucked over considering how much of my life I've put into this.
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2023.03.24 14:31 Favourite_Banana85 [Emotiv] Finale: Moving On

[Emotiv] Finale: Moving On

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The story so far: Kyla took a job as a Mixologist at Emotiv, a cafe selling emotions in liquid form. Soon, she becomes entangled in a morally grey area of society, singled out by a corrupt warden and thrown into reform. Caught between a government only interested in making coin, and a rebellious group of baristas who work from the shadows to support society's underbelly, who's to say what is right anymore? Perhaps everyone is just looking out for number one. And maybe it's time Kyla does the same...

Finale: Moving On

By the time the wardens return with a supply of Composure, courtesy of Emotiv, Sinclair and Harding are draining their third whisky.
“The water brings the flavours out, you see?” Sinclair hiccups. “Without it, it’s just not the same. Ah! There you are.” He motions to the wardens in the elevator. “Please, come in. Thank you.”
Frank and I fetch the compliance and soak Dani and Lena’s lips with the neat syrup, patiently wetting their tongues in the hope of bringing them back to consciousness. Lena’s eyes flutter almost right away, and Frank quickly brings her up to date.
Dani lays limp in my arms, their eyelashes thick and dark against their cheeks. Stroking their face, I run my thumb across their lower lip, willing them to wake up. “Come on, come on…”
Three doses. I couldn’t help but count them as I watch their motionless face. The first when Harding first took them from Emotiv. The second in reform. And now a third.
Caleb got three doses.
“Come on…”
“Patience is a virtue,” Dani says weakly, their face brightening instantly, eyes fluttering open.
A small squeak escapes me, and I hold Dani’s face in both hands, bending down and kissing them, not caring about anyone else in the room.
“I thought I lost you,” I say through the thick feeling in my throat, the threatening tears choking me. “I thought you were dead. I thought—”
“Shh.” Dani strokes a hand through my hair, gazing up into my eyes. “I’m alright. A bit dazed but…”
“There, you see?” Sinclair says with a satisfied smile, although his eyes soften when he looks at Dani, as though he’s beginning to feel the first pangs of guilt. “All’s well that ends well.”
“Here,” I pass the glass of Composure to Dani. “This will help.”
While Lena and Dani come to, we fill them in on the ‘deal’. I don’t give too many details about the terms we’ve agreed, only that Lena needs to broadcast a message to Skycross.
It takes her no time to set up a makeshift studio in Sinclair’s apartment with his computer and a security camera, ready to transmit his announcement across the city. While she works, I watch Sinclair and Harding carefully, noting every frown, every flicker of doubt that crosses their face. As time goes by, it becomes more and more frequent, until Lena is ready to broadcast.
“Alright,” she says warily. “It’s not perfect, but it’ll do. Who’s going live first?”
I raise my eyebrows at Sinclair. “I think Mr Sinclair should start.”
He looks surprised, but nods slowly, like he’s considering his options. “Yes… yes, of course. I’ll go first.”
While Sinclair positions himself in front of the camera, I turn to Dani and take their hand.
“Come on,” I murmur. “Let’s go.”
They frown. “Aren’t you meant to do a thing?”
I shake my head.
“People of Skycross, residents of Central Square. I speak to you tonight, not as a VIP, but as a fellow resident of this city.” Sinclair looks earnestly into the camera, his lower lip trembling as he seems to weigh his words. “I… I have so much to tell you.”
Dani and I walk hand in hand to the elevator, where Harding stares out of the window. Outside, Sinclair’s face is plastered over every building, every ad board, every visible screen in Skycross.
Harding’s eyes are glassy, his shoulders slumped. As the elevator doors close behind us, he slides to the floor, covering his head with his hands and sobbing softly.
“What the hell did you do to him?” Dani asks.
I shrug. “Frank and I figured they needed a taste of their own medicine.”
Dani cocks an eyebrow. “Yeah, sure, but which one?”
“Take your pick.” I grin, embracing the warmth in my veins from the liquid happiness I’ve dosed myself with.
Outside, the air is cool and crisp. I breathe deeply, weaving through the assembled wardens and rioters in warden gear.
“Many years ago, we implemented a new reform centre within Skycross. We promised that the inmates there would be given the skills to survive and thrive in society. But in truth… they were nothing more than free labour. I turned a blind eye to the reasons for their imprisonment, but I did not work alone in this.”
Dani squeezes my hand as we reach the edge of Central Square, tugging on me slightly. “Kyla, wait—”
I turn back to them. “What’s wrong?”
“Where are we going?”
“I… I don’t know.” I laugh a little. “Anywhere.”
Over Dani’s shoulder, I see my mother, standing with her face turned up to the massive screens dominating the central plaza. Behind her stands Caleb, with one hand on her shoulder. I know it’s not this simple. Even if I walk away, he’ll still haunt me.
“Anywhere but here.”
“Dennis Harding, the Chief Warden of Skycross, was elected to his position due to my recommendation. He and I made a deal to fill reform as quickly as possible, and keep it full, so that Emotiv would have an abundance of free workers. Willing, compliant workers, thanks to the emotion enhancers we have at our disposal. I regret this. I do not know how to make it up to you. I put my fate into your hands.”
Dani kisses me softly, their hand cupping my chin. “Okay. Let’s go.”
There’s more to fix, more to survive. Like the tendrils of Oblivion that curl in the back of my mind, waiting for a dark moment to strike. Any moment of doubt, or sadness, or despair, and the drug will take effect, replaying my mistakes, my trauma, my sins, on repeat in front of my eyes.
And yet, at this moment, walking hand-in-hand with Dani, I don’t really mind. Maybe it’s the prospect of a fresh start, a new place, a new life.
Or maybe that’s just the Serenity talking.
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Author’s Note:
Wow. A whole year since I started developing my short story into this serial novel. It’s the first time I’d ever written a serial, and I went into it with less than an ideal plan. I had no outline, no ending, and very little idea of what I was doing. I just knew it was a good way to motivate myself to write (almost) every week.
Emotiv has been a huge learning experience for me, and while it’s definitely more than a little rough around the edges, I’m really pleased to have seen the project through to the end.
I’m going to take a few months off from working on Emotiv now to work on other projects, and then I’ll be looking back over this story as a first draft, ready to edit into a more cohesive and well planned out novel. Hah. Should be fun!
In the meantime, if you have any comments or feedback about this story and all its many varied plotholes, please do let me know - it’ll come in really useful when I finally sit down to polish it up!
Thank you so much for reading Kyla’s weird and tangled story. I hope you enjoyed it in its current form, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for following along!
Ria x
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2023.03.24 14:30 Intrepid-Inspector80 Need advice on long-ish distance relationship issues (25M) + (22F)

Me (25M) and my GF (22F) have been officially together for just over a year now but started seeing each other around 18 months ago and are currently having some issues with new distance in the relationship.
When we first met she lived 40 minutes away, which at the time didnt feel so bad. We took things slow (mostly on my terms) but ended up fostering a committed relationship. She began to look to move closer to me, viewed several places to rent and even got a job near me. Though i currently live with my parents she spent most days with me and stayed most nights while she was looking somewhere.
The first half of last year was great, we went away together a lot made a tonne of memories in a short time and built a genuinely amazing relationship. My relationship before her was 8 years long, and ive felt so much more love in this newer one. Im basically trying to say that things were very good, everything was so easy and it just felt like we were made to be a team.
Summer came around and she ended up landing her dream job opportunity of becoming a tattoo artist (apprentice position). The studio was 50 minutes away, but it didnt seem so bad i was just thrilled for her because these positions are famously hard to get. A couple months later she ended up getting a place over there. On a good day it's 50 mins away, on a bad more like 70.
Initially she was working 3 days and living off of savings as well as the small amount she earned at the time. So we still had time to make the trips and stay with eachother for a few nights at a time. However she now works a full 5 days, but tattoo apprenticeships arent particularly lucrative so shes even having to now look for part time work to fit around it.
Im freelance, which is both a blessing and a curse, it means i can be flexible with my time and work from home at her place so we can see eachother on evenings. It also means that my work can be super sporadic and lead to unfortunate timings where we may not see eachother for over a week or more.
But things have been particularly tough recently. We had a bit of a rough patch before Christmas where she didnt feel i was making enough effort and felt that i wasnt committed to our future (she was right to a degree in that i hadnt been doing much to show my intent and put that effort in) then she ended up kissing another guy on a random night out. She owned up to it after it had happened and we took some time off, i made the decision to let her back and try to rebuild some trust. Though many people might think thats not a great move i was happy with my decision and things actually got way way better, we had some conversations and loads of time together over Christmas which was a blessing. Our relationship genuinely got a second lease of life after that.
However the pain from that still festered and i still struggled to fully trust her, the past couple of months ive been quite anxious and maybe sometimes overbearing and just feeling suspicious which has definitely had an effect on her too.
The last month in particular has been difficult as shes had to do things on her usual days off and work has become more busy for me, typically on her days off too. So weve been trying to block out time together but its proven difficult.
This past week ive noticed that shes been a little off, i managed to stay at hers last night and decided to semi address the situation. I was upset and didnt put on my best performance (tears etc) but basically she said she feels like our relationship and her life where she currently lives are two separate things, like shes living 2 lives almost. She said that she feels like she cant establish a social life where she lives or fully settle because of our relationship. Shes always been quite needy (i dont mean that in a negative way) in the sense that she likes to have me around all the time, she basically said that all of the issues that have come with the distance are not what she wants in a relationship. Both of our love languages are physical touch and quality time which arent helped by distance.
The further issue is that we dont have an end goal/distance closer in sight. I will be moving out of my parents house this summer to a city that is even further away (probably 90 minutes total), she considered moving to the city too but says she doesnt want to make the move if im the only reason (which is fair enough i understand that perspective fully). I had tried to push her to move and look for an apprenticeship in that city but she seems to think it will be impossible as theyre super hard to get.
During our conversation last night she said she had kind of made the decision to settle there because it was easier than moving again. We didnt really come to any sort of conclusion, as far as i know we are still together but it feels like its all hanging in the balance.
I want to make this work, i believe we have a good relationship and the only reason for it to end would be 50 minutes of driving, which feels like a waste to me. I considered taking more time off to wrap our heads around the issue but I'm anxious that more space isnt the solution. Im concerned that she will now think im being too needy and anxious as ive made it very clear i dont want things to end.
Any advice would be so appreciated, even just a new perspective!
TLDR: GF (22F) of just over a year recently moved 50 minutes away for work. We have a very good relationship (barre one rough patch where she kissed someone else as our relationship took a hefty dip). Things have been busy and we've struggled to see eachother more than once a week recently. I will be moving further away (90 mins) in summer and we dont have an end goal of distance closer in sight. Im freelance so sometimes can work at her place and see eachother on evenings, she had time to look to move to the city that im moving to but has decided to settle where she is as she doesnt want to make the move just because i am.
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2023.03.24 14:30 Aixx78 At a Crossroads- Clock is Ticking

My NW is not high ($750K). I am posting here, because i am seeking advice from people who are where I would like to be. I'm mid 40s married with 2 young kids.
I'm a Project Manager for a very high end construction firm that builds homes for the 1% of the 1%. Most of our budgets are north of $50MM and nearly all of our clients are net worth north of 1B. I would be lying if I said the envy of what these people spend money doesn't effect me.
But, my real issue is with the Owner of my company and my boss. The owner of the company is a very high net worth individual himself from a prestigious family. He has no construction background but his network of clients is a major part of the business of course. There is a COO who runs the whole show from a high level who has been my mentor for 20 years. I think he is the best construction manager in the United States - and I say that seriously.
I'm a project manager and run 2 jobs below him. We have about 4 or 5 projects company wide in progress most times. The Owner collects the big checks, the COO is partner and collects in the range of 20% of profits on top of what I'm guessing is a $800K salary. I don't get to see the bottom line, but I know the profits on my project and can do the math. I think the company nets between $3MM to $5MM a year. My projects are typically $1MM to $2MM of that.
I make between 300K and 400K per year, but I have no equity, no 401K (but yes on health insurance - big deal). I'm W-2. My wife works W-2 as well but we are in a HCOL area and kids are in good private schools. We have a good net salary but we spend a god damn fortune and it's not like we are living a life of luxury.
I'm bitter, totally unmotivated, secretly pissed, and feel trapped. One of my 2 projects has an absolutely impossible client. It's a long story that I can't really share here, but if you heard it I guarantee you would agree that he is the problem on the project. I have a very good track record besides this one.
I was told by the COO that the day is coming where the Owner is going to start giving equity to the employees. The owner is very old and once he truly retires the business doesn't need him. It's all people and no assets. My concern is that that equity will be distributed throughout the whole company and I'll end up with 3% and still feel unsatisfied.
I don't like what I've become - silently pissed off, unmotivated, resentful. I worked hard and focused for nearly 20 years in this organization. I don't show this, but I think it's becoming known and my relationship with the owner is basically one of silence and detachment. The COO I'm close with and really like.
I've looked around elsewhere and can match the salary and have 2 offers with "growth into equity" but I'm not really fond of the companies.
I'm thinking about going out on my own, but I'm tight on cash. I'm pretty sure I can go out on my own into a CM position and book some good projects quickly. I'm sure I won't be making a mill a year, but I could probably get there in 3 to 5 years. Moreover, I feel like I would be my old self again and have always felt I should be a business owner as my father and grandfather were. My fear is having a rough couple years out of the gate with the kids.
Any advice or perspective would be appreciated. Isn't some equity a realistic request after 20 years... I feel like I've been fucked over considering how much of my life I've put into this.
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2023.03.24 14:28 mgcypes Would you like to join a genre-dedicated bookclub on discord?

TL;DR: Want to read these kinds1 of novels together in sync?
DM me, u/mgcypes, if you want to join a discord server that exists to organize exactly that!


Hello everyone here on ClimbersCourt. I would very much like to introduce you to our genre1 dedicated book club!
In short, the discord server seeks to organize synchronized reading of novels, usually in the format of reading a target amount of chapters pr. week, with a concurrent dedicated text-channel for discussion.
Alongside a co-read, we also have optional opt-in events, ranging from trivia minigames, weekly riddles, to full events like a jeopardy.

We heavily focus on experiencing a novel together at the same time, and thus spoilers are a big moderation subject. Anything beyond, or major within, the current-target-chapters, are 100% considered spoilers, and must be tagged as such. Alongside keeping it pegi13, not openly sharing piracy, and general common sense, that's pretty much it for the rules.

On our server, we will typically have around 2 main co-reads.
Currently, this consists of being up to release on Shadow Slave and Circle of Inevitability (LoTM2), as well as the upcoming start of co-reading Forty Millenniums of Cultivation, set at an initial 75 chapters / week, starting the 31st of this month (Friday, March)!

If you are like many of our members, and read plenty more than what the main novels have, don't fancy the choices, or really want to read something else, we also have the Library pavilion2: Where you can make a post and collect enough members to start an unofficial co-read through the server's help. If it gets popular enough early enough, being promoted to main novel is also a possibility; like Shadow Slave was. Totally join my cradle pavilion this summer wink

We, of course, also have a dao-debate room, where general novel discussion takes place, and a sect courtyard where other off-topic content takes place. The latter being an optional claimable role2unlock.

(1); :Stonks: Progression fantasy, Cultivation, Xianxia, Xuanhuan, Wuxia, LitRPG etc.
(2): Claim the role in #roles to see the pavilions. There is a minimum number of participants needed, to be allotted a channel, and pacing is primarily to be handled by the participants themselves.


I am not providing a direct join link, as we would like you to dm u/mgcypes, @ Cypes#5798, or simply commenting on the post (anything that gives me a notification) - to show that initial level of interest; that's pretty much our member filter.
You are also very welcome to ask questions via the same method.


TL;DR: Want to read these kinds of novels together in sync?

DM me, u/mgcypes, if you want to join a discord server that exists to organize exactly that!
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2023.03.24 14:28 Broad-Math-3713 My (f26) Ex bf (m26) of 5 years that I live with wants to potentially fix our relationship while dating other people.

My (26f) Ex bf (26) demanded I move out to kinda change his mind but not really.
I'll start by saying I know the answer is to leave. I just am having so much trouble doing it. Please tell me the truth hard or soft to help me get my head on straight.
This is gonna be long do thank you for reading. My ex and I were together for about 5 years. The last two almost three years have been kind of hell of I am going to be honest. Or relationship started off strong loving and ideal . We had never tried at each other cussed at each other or really ever argued. It was all love. Then about 2.5 years ago just after he decided to stop seeing his son who I had been help raising with 50/50 custody for us to focus on the business we were trying to start. As one can probably guess we didn't and still have now executed and it has def taken it's toll. Anyway this is when his lying and cheating came out, and he even gave me a UTI from fcking some girl and coming home to fck me. I very dramatictly left when he lied to me about going to see this same girl again. I called the girl and him, and kinda went bizerk. When he ignored my calls, I packed my stuff including the game system that he played but I bought and our imac and left to my sister's. He came home to me not there the stuff gone and a broken tv. Long story short bc he couldn't get in contact w me or my siblings bc I blocked him and demanded they did too, when I stopped by later to gather more items and shower he didn't say a word to me a called the police. Long story short I was arrested and had to beat a DV case for the broken tv. Fast forward to the night after jail he turned my phone off and called CPS on my sister. A few days later he reached out to me every way possible begging me to come home. Like a dummy I did, and we ended up moving states together for two years. Honestly it was hell most days and at this point he was consistently telling me he wanted to move and us to break up. I usually cried , said I could change the things I did that bothered him and he always ended up staying. Mind you thins whole time he is getting caught doing something unfaithful in my eyes. Texting other women, saying he's single, and being on dating apps. At one point it gets so bad for us we basically pick up and move back to our hometown.
We have been back for about 5 months, have consistently paid rent late he has quite his job and consistently arguing. He constantly calls me his lady or girl just to get mad and tell me I haven't been his girlfriend fornover a year. Most recently I had an odd feeling that he was being unfaithful again, after months of being faithful and checked the usage log on our phone provider to see if had been talking to anyone. Of course I found a number being texted consistently ( even while I was at work working a 12 hour night shift and he asked me not to call him so he can sleep). I added the number tonmy contacts and downloaded Snapchat to see if I could find who it was and during this process found his secret Snapchat. I was infuriated and made a new Snapchat with the username fuckyouhisname and added him. I wake up in the next few hours to him talking so much shit about me to hisself. I don't say anything and let him leave . He texts me a messages telling me to leave him alone and he doesn't want to deal with my Bs. I respond telling him to go talk to 'Sally' . Long story short it escalates, I turn off his phone for like 20 min and threaten to call the police twice during this long day of an argument. I don't remember everything said but he did tell me I wasn't his gf, he owes me nothing and will continue to talk to other women bc he is single. Mind you just days ago he was telling me all about his loyalty to me and toegther or not he won't talk to other women as we live together.
I ended up feeling HORRIBLE about my actions and apologized bc I felt like I was allowing myself to be taken out of charecter. I had planned to leave this Friday and literally live in my car bc he demanded I leave and he hates me. My best friend said I can move out of state to her and will hold me down while I get back in my feet. As the day to leave got closer and the check from my job to buy a ticket I kept finding myself trying to figure out how to fix my relationship. I woke up and made bf because that and the dirtiness of our home is what he always tells me he disliked most about me. Knowing his love language is gifts I wanted to buy him a new game system. I tell him, while explaining house confused I am. Today he tells me that we should talk about what it would look like off I stayed. Saying I am trying to be his parent but if I stop and don't act physcho maybe we can figure something out until the end of the lease. When I inquired if he would still plan to keep tlking to other women he told me yes and that he isn't saying for us to get back together. That we need to become friend again first and maybe it can grow. I feel like that is bullshit. Like he shouldn't be entertaining anyone else being open to f*cking anyone else and should focus on fixing us so we can get back to his son. He tells me I am not deserving of him anymore and he wants vibes from other women. He also says we can't work at the same job ( which has been a part of our plan) and I can't have him on social media. Saying bc I am a distraction. Mind you, we have been having sex everyday but yesterday and I always ended up getting mad bc he will be on his phone texting what I assume and he had admitted is other women. And when I ask him not to do that around me gets upset with me. Even last night when he suggested w have a good night together and talk about everything in the morning I had to ask him to not be in his phone texting other women.and he responded saying he guesses he can turn his phone off after he tells them bye bc he's not just going to ghost them. Before you ask yes I spent the rest of my money buying him and myself two game systems and paying our past due rent. So I don't even have enough for a plane ticket anymore. How am I supposed to be doing all three loving things a gf does for us too fall in love again, butt he's dating other people? Or didn't feel fair.
Guys this isn't right , right? Like he just wants me here for the money right? Please tell me what I need to hear to freaking grow a pair and not act like the most insecure women out there. And btw I did try downloading dating apps hoping talking to other people would make me feel better since he is, but it did not work and I gate the idea of talking to any other men. Am I still here bche was my first and only or is that amyth? Thank you for reading and please help 🥲
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2023.03.24 14:26 blorbobleebus I despise my mother and I am a useless member of society

This is kind of a "I hate everything" post. Backstory: me (F20) and my mom (46) aren't on best terms. I don't remember when it started, and it used to be less intense, but now I can't even talk to her normally, I just can't bring myself to be nice to her. She ignores the basic requests of "don't touch my keyboard" when she goes into my room without my permission to clean something (more on that later). Then she makes me mad with her behavior, I stop talking to her, and then she acts like nothing happened and I should just be nice and friendly to her. Some time later I give up and we go back to being on decent terms until the same happens again. Rinse and repeat. I don't think it's that hard not to touch things or to close the kitchen door in the morning when she and father talk loudly about some shit while I'm asleep. Or not to cook meat that smells awful (I'm not even vegan/vegetarian, they just buy some kind that stinks when cooked). If I did that, you know she'd be complaining and crying how I don't love her. I feel zero love or respect towards her, even though she's not really a bad person.
My father (49) also isn't exactly great, he has severe anger issues, thinks therapy is a hoax while simultaneous calling himself a "sociopath" (he isn't, he's just introverted and has no communication skills. He's not even sociophobic judging by his behavior). Also thinks that the Republic party is great, Trump was good, but at the same time has been anti-Putin his whole life. Racist, slightly sexist and queerphobic, not extremely, but he still has some outdated views and prejudice. Ironically, I get along with him better. Maybe because our temperaments are similar.
I'm not a very good person either, I get mad easily too, I am not in university and have been unemployed for more than a year. I have no useful skills. I also have untreated ADHD (stimulants are illegal here and non-stims didn't work) that got worse after having COVID. I think I've gotten a little better at taking care of myself lately — I used to shower and brush my teeth very rarely, now it's still not ideal but more frequent. To be clear I'm not going outside or meeting with people while being dirty. I was also diagnosed with BPD but I feel like the psychiatrist is wrong because I don't have symptoms like having a FP or splitting which are pretty major from what I understand. Anyway, my attention span is absolute dogshit and I can't even do things I enjoy, not to mention stuff that isn't fun, like cleaning. I just can't. I tell myself that I need to get a job and clean my room, give myself a deadline and then ignore it. Yes, this is why my mother comes to clean — even though I told her not to do it. She finally stopped a month ago after another argument happened and I didn't speak to her for a couple weeks. Honestly, I would still ignore her, but it was her birthday on the 16th and she started the whole "plenty tawk to me it's my biwday :((((" after giving an insincere apology. She only apolozed after I asked her if she was going to. I guess she thinks it's normal to ignore all boundaries because all the time I was ignoring her she was trying to start conversations as if nothing happened. And then she goes and cooks that fucking stinking meat on my birthday (today) because of course it's only hers that matters.
Yes, I know that I'm probably the worst person in this situation. I was never abused. I had almost everything I wanted and needed. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to stop despising her while simultaneously being a burden who can't even clean her own mess. She's not a bad person and I think she does care about me, I do feel bad when I get mad and yell at her but I constantly get irritated at even her presence. I don't think I'm capable of going to university, I won't be able to pay attention in class and just get expelled after the first exams. Any job that requires no skills is going to be shit and has a chance to end up in a messy situation — like my last one did (I ended up owing them money for shit that was lost not even on my shift). I have no irl friends and not many online ones. To top it all off, I live in fucking Russia, which was a shithole with very little perspective even before the war and massive sanctions. Something's so fucking wrong with me and I can't even fix it — antidepressants did not help either when I was taking them. I don't want or plan to kill myself, but I'm smart enough to realize that my life is worthless for this world and literally nothing would change if I died.
If anyone has advice that isn't "you're making it all up" or "just focus" I'd appreciate it.
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2023.03.24 14:26 Aixx78 At a Crossroads

My NW is not high ($750K). I am posting here, because i am seeking advice from people who are where I would like to be. I'm mid 40s married with 2 young kids.
I'm a Project Manager for a very high end construction firm that builds homes for the 1% of the 1%. Most of our budgets are north of $50MM and nearly all of our clients are net worth north of 1B. I would be lying if I said the envy of what these people spend money doesn't effect me.
But, my real issue is with the Owner of my company and my boss. The owner of the company is a very high net worth individual himself from a prestigious family. He has no construction background but his network of clients is a major part of the business of course. There is a COO who runs the whole show from a high level who has been my mentor for 20 years. I think he is the best construction manager in the United States - and I say that seriously.
I'm a project manager and run 2 jobs below him. We have about 4 or 5 projects company wide in progress most times. The Owner collects the big checks, the COO is partner and collects in the range of 20% of profits on top of what I'm guessing is a $800K salary. I don't get to see the bottom line, but I know the profits on my project and can do the math. I think the company nets between $3MM to $5MM a year. My projects are typically $1MM to $2MM of that.
I make between 300K and 400K per year, but I have no equity, no 401K (but yes on health insurance - big deal). I'm W-2. My wife works W-2 as well but we are in a HCOL area and kids are in good private schools. We have a good net salary but we spend a god damn fortune and it's not like we are living a life of luxury.
I'm bitter, totally unmotivated, secretly pissed, and feel trapped. One of my 2 projects has an absolutely impossible client. It's a long story that I can't really share here, but if you heard it I guarantee you would agree that he is the problem on the project. I have a very good track record besides this one.
I was told by the COO that the day is coming where the Owner is going to start giving equity to the employees. The owner is very old and once he truly retires the business doesn't need him. It's all people and no assets. My concern is that that equity will be distributed throughout the whole company and I'll end up with 3% and still feel unsatisfied.
I don't like what I've become - silently pissed off, unmotivated, resentful. I worked hard and focused for nearly 20 years in this organization. I don't show this, but I think it's becoming known and my relationship with the owner is basically one of silence and detachment. The COO I'm close with and really like.
I've looked around elsewhere and can match the salary and have 2 offers with "growth into equity" but I'm not really fond of the companies.
I'm thinking about going out on my own, but I'm tight on cash. I'm pretty sure I can go out on my own into a CM position and book some good projects quickly. I'm sure I won't be making a mill a year, but I could probably get there in 3 to 5 years. Moreover, I feel like I would be my old self again and have always felt I should be a business owner as my father and grandfather were. My fear is having a rough couple years out of the gate with the kids.
Any advice or perspective would be appreciated. Isn't some equity a realistic request after 20 years... I feel like I've been fucked over considering how much of my life I've put into this.
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2023.03.24 14:26 guitarplayinglegend How bad does mixing songs in mp3 effect the quality of the music?

I wanna know producers opinions on this. I have a client who wanted me to work in mp3 for all his stems and my job has been nearly impossible to pull off by doing things his way. I made my intentions clear which is im on his side and that we need to be working with the standard .wav files if im going to mix music properly for him. Am I in the wrong for requesting the standard? He isn't giving me what I need to do my job efficiently and to make his music sound good.
He has a bunch of songs recorded already and his recording software doesn't allow him to save stems to a .wav . He is determined to get me to work on more of his stuff using mp3s as stems but I am not a miracle worker and will have to refuse to honor his request until something changes.
I went along with it against my wishes for 3 of his songs already and I have never felt so much like an amateur. I went into the entire mixing process knowing im already making mistakes. While he was happy with what I had already mixed for him I knew in my gut that everything I have done working with mp3 up to this point has been very wrong and not the correct way to mix music.
I told him in the end that it is his project and up to him how he decides to record it but any sound guy who agrees to mix in mp3 for him is either ripping him off or doesn't know what he is doing. I downright said to him that you are a talented artist with all the tools but mp3 is messing up the production of your music.
I couldn't sugar coat things for him anymore and needed to be honest as his sound guy. Hes probably gonna just get somebody else to do the work for him but I tried my best to help. I suggested to him that he tries a different recording software and that there are a lot of programs which save stems to a .wav . I doubt hes going to follow my advice but I tried man. If the client refuses to listen to the person whos mixing his music there is a lack of proper communication and no plan of action. I can't fix what is already broken.
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2023.03.24 14:23 Myth_of_Progress “Ah Shit, Here We Go Again!” - A Casual Critique and Commentary on The Atlantic’s “The Malthusians Are Back” [In-Depth]


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Myth's Note: Today's meme is a little more esoteric than usual. I've summarized everything you'll need to know in point-form, and don't worry: you'll gain a new appreciation from the joke once you're finished with this thread.
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Last Wednesday, I had the good fortune to stumble upon an intriguing thread, a wonderful discussion on a recent article published in The Atlantic: The Malthusians Are Back (Archive Link Here). Now, it isn't often that I'm driven to rapidly prepare a commentary and critique on any given piece of writing, but this one truly took the cake. As I have previously stated on record, "there is so much that is factually wrong or misrepresented in this article that I am considering sending a formal letter to The Atlantic."
I say this as a credible writer with threads, commentaries, and publications in hand:
I'll walk back my words slightly, then: since it's Friday, I suppose that this will be my casual letter to The Atlantic (complete with meme). And so, today, I thought that we'd explore this piece together. Forgive me for any errors along the way; unlike the authors, I do not have the luxury of writing and researching these matters as my full-time profession, and this was prepared in my spare time over my last two evenings.
A sincere and full disclosure upfront, though: this is an entirely biased assessment, and I will be cherry-picking lines as I go piece by piece. And so, without further ado, let's begin:
The Malthusians Are Back - Alex Trembath and Vijaya Ramachandran
In recent years, many climate advocates have emphasized human population itself—as opposed to related factors such as consumption and technology—as the driving force behind environmental destruction. This is, at bottom, a very old idea that can be traced back to the 18th-century cleric Thomas Malthus. It is also analytically unsound and morally objectionable. Critics of overpopulation down through the ages have had a nasty habit of treating people less as individuals with value and agency than as sentient locusts.
Malthus argued against aid to poor Britons on the grounds that they consumed too many of the nation’s resources. In making his case, he semi-accurately described a particular kind of poverty that we still refer to as the “Malthusian trap” today. Agricultural productivity in poor societies is not high enough to support the population without significant labor input, so most people work on small subsistence farms to feed themselves and their families. The inescapably linear growth in the food supply could never outstrip the exponential growth in human populations, he argued.
But human societies have proved repeatedly that they can escape the Malthusian trap. Indeed, agricultural productivity has improved to support a British population seven times larger than in Malthus’s time and a global population eight times larger. As a result of these stubborn facts, most Malthusian imitators haven’t come out and said they’re Malthusians. And instead of focusing on famine, they have tended to emphasize humanity’s destruction of nature.
This is almost a caricature that Catton was warning about in his book, Overshoot: The Ecological Basis of Revolutionary Change - something which I analyze carefully in one of my previous threads: "Good Job, Homo Sapiens!" & The Tragedy of Malthus. I'll quote the relevant part below:
The Real Error
Malthus did indeed err, but not in the way that has been commonly supposed. He rightly discerned “the power of population” to increase exponentially “if unchecked.” He rightly noted that population growth ordinarily is not unchecked. He saw that it was worth inquiring into the means by which the exponential growth tendency is normally checked. He was perceptive in attaching the label “misery” to some of the ramifications of these means. Where he was wrong was in supposing that the means worked fully and immediately. (That this was his error has not been seen by those who reject his views.)
Being himself under the impression that it was not possible for the human load to exceed the earth’s carrying capacity, Malthus enabled those who came after him to go on misconstruing continued impressive growth as evidence against, rather than as evidence for, his basic ideas. Carrying capacity was a concept almost clear to Malthus. He even sensed that the carrying capacities of earth’s regions had been repeatedly enlarged by human cultural progress.20 If he was not yet able to make clear to himself and his readers the distinction between means of enlarging carrying capacity and means of overshooting it, we do ourselves a serious disservice by perpetuating his shortcoming. And we do just such a disservice by continuing to mistake overshoot for progress, supposing drawdown to be no different from takeover. By erring thus we prolong and deepen our predicament.
Despite Malthus’s belief to the contrary, it is possible to exceed an environment’s carrying capacity—temporarily. Many species have done it. A species with as long an interval between generations as is characteristic of ours, and with cultural as well as biological appetites, can be expected to do it. Our largest per capita demands upon the world’s resources only begin to be asserted years after we are born. Resource depletion sufficient to thwart our children’s grown-up aspirations was not far enough advanced when our parents were begetting, gestating, and bearing us to deter them from thus adding to the human load.
By not quite seeing that carrying capacity can be temporarily overshot, Malthus understated life’s perils. He thus enabled both the admirers and the detractors of his admonitory writings to neglect the effects of overshoot—environmental degradation and carrying capacity reduction. In his analyses he assumed linear increase of carrying capacity. While this fell short of sustaining exponential growth of would-be consumers, it was, even so, a far brighter prospect than carrying capacity reduction.
Okay, now that we've pointed out the main errors of Malthus and the consequent faulty foundation of the authors' arguments (keeping alive a tradition of misunderstanding that Catton warned about decades ago), let's keep going:
The Malthusians Are Back - Alex Trembath and Vijaya Ramachandran
Oreskes draws attention to the same problem that Ehrlich did in his day: biodiversity loss associated with high-fertility, low-productivity societies caught in the Malthusian trap. Because subsistence farms have low yields, and because the farmers tend to rely on wood and other biomass for energy, they remain a major driver of deforestation, land-use change, and wildlife extirpation.
In Oreskes’s recent Scientific American op-ed, she acknowledges that her ideas have a tarnished legacy. “Population control is a vexing subject,” she writes, “because in the past it has generally been espoused by rich people (mostly men) instructing people in poor countries (mostly women) on how to behave.” Her workaround is to emphasize educational opportunities as a “reasonable” way to “slow growth.” In an email, Oreskes said that she does not consider herself a Malthusian and that she focuses on education “because we know that it can work, and unlike some other approaches it is good for women, and non-coercive.”
In addition to reading Naomi Oreskes' latest work (Eight Billion People in the World Is a Crisis, Not an Achievement - great read, by the way!), I have personally interviewed a French PhD student (Elias Ganivet) for his perspective (a contemporary understanding of overpopulation) on the matter a while back. In our e-mail correspondence, he provides evidence for the above-listed statements. Here's a quote from the man himself, a link to his published academic article, and my own thread on the matter:
Elias Ganivet (Growth in human population and consumption both need to be addressed to reach an ecologically sustainable future) as quoted by u/myth_of_progress in The Overpopulation vs. Over-consumption Debate: Why Not Address Both? [In-Depth]
"For instance, regarding climate change, I would slightly qualify the impact of population growth vs. consumption (the 10% richest are responsible for more than 50% of GHG emissions). [However], this is not true when you look at the environmental problems all together (pollution, resource depletion, biodiversity loss, land-use change, climate change...). Thus, the main point is still the same: population and consumption are two faces of the same coin and we need to do as much as we can in both."
Right, up next: a paragraph which I've broken up, which includes a rapid fire list of incorrect statements:
The Malthusians Are Back - Alex Trembath and Vijaya Ramachandran
Rough contemporaries of Malthus, such as the Marquis de Condorcet, Karl Marx, and Friedrich Engels, argued that improvements in economic productivity would allow humans to grow enough food to meet rising population levels, and they were right.
The article that they've provided for Marx and Engels is one that I've used myself for arguments in the past, and it's miraculous how they ignored exactly what is written at the bottom first page.
Marx's and Engels' Concept of Malthus: The Heritage of a Critique, Richard J. Wiltgen
To Marx and Engels, the primary problem with Malthus's population principle was that it was ahistorical. According to Marx (1967), Malthus had attempted to explain "'overpopulation' by the external laws of Nature, rather than by the historical laws of capitalist production (Vol. 1, p. 529n). In a fragmentary note that Engels had intended to include in his Dialectics of Nature, he presented an analysis of Darwin that paralleled his and Marx's discussion of Malthus and capitalism. Engels (1964) stated that Malthusian overpopulation problems "do in fact occur at certain stages of plant and lower animal life" (p. 311). His discussion of Darwin reflects the complexity of the relationship he envisioned.
Now that Marx is out of the way, lets see what they have to say about Borlaug (I cannot comment on Vogt, as I'm unfamiliar with his work):
The Malthusians Are Back - Alex Trembath and Vijaya Ramachandran
Vogt’s pessimism lost out to the ingenuity of, among others, the Nobel Peace Prize–winning agronomist Norman Borlaug, as the historian Charles Mann recounts in his 2018 book, The Wizard and the Prophet. Borlaug’s innovations in wheat and maize cultivation helped stave off the famines Vogt and other eugenicists had predicted.
This completely ignores what Norman Borlaug actually professed at his 1970 Nobel Peace Prize Acceptance Speech, and it is actively advocating for a false representation of actual historical fact. As u/dr_seven states best: “[To them,] Borlaug is an icon, not a human; he didn’t have any views that are at all inconvenient.” To quote Borlaug’s own words directly, as an actual person and not a useful strawman (my emphasis in bold):
The Nobel Peace Prize 1970 - Acceptance Speech, Norman Borlaug
It is true that the tide of the battle against hunger has changed for the better during the past three years. But tides have a way of flowing and then ebbing again. We may be at high tide now, but ebb tide could soon set in if we become complacent and relax our efforts. For we are dealing with two opposing forces, the scientific power of food production and the biologic power of human reproduction.
Man has made amazing progress recently in his potential mastery of these two contending powers. Science, invention, and technology have given him materials and methods for increasing his food supplies substantially and sometimes spectacularly, as I hope to prove tomorrow in my first address as a newly decorated and dedicated Nobel Laureate.
Man also has acquired the means to reduce the rate of human reproduction effectively and humanely. He is using his powers for increasing the rate and amount of food production. But he is not yet using adequately his potential for decreasing the rate of human reproduction. The result is that the rate of population increase exceeds the rate of increase in food production in some areas.
There can be no permanent progress in the battle against hunger until the agencies that fight for increased food production and those that fight for population control unite in a common effort. Fighting alone, they may win temporary skirmishes, but united they can win a decisive and lasting victory to provide food and other amenities of a progressive civilization for the benefit of all mankind.
And finally, another comment in an attempt to discredit Ehrlich (they're really fixated on him, aren't they?) ...
The Malthusians Are Back - Alex Trembath and Vijaya Ramachandran
Ehrlich, infamously, lost a bet with the libertarian economist Julian Simon over resource scarcity. (Simon goes completely unmentioned in Ehrlich’s autobiography.)
I'm really glad they raised this point, as this is a frequent criticism to discredit Ehrlich. I'll let The Economist (image provided) do my work here to speak in his defense:
The Revenge of Malthus: A Famous Bet Recalculated, The Economist
Mr Simon duly won the bet. The economic boom of the 1980s and 1990s also contradicted Mr Ehrlich's wilder claims—that a billion people would starve to death and that, by 1985, America would be trapped in an “age of scarcity”.
But what if Mr Ehrlich had taken up Mr Simon's 1990 offer to go “double or quits” for any future date? All five have risen in price since the rematch was proposed. Furthermore, Jeremy Grantham of GMO, a fund-management group, points out that Mr Ehrlich would have won the original bet were it recalculated today (he is still alive; Mr Simon died in 1998). An equally weighted portfolio of the five commodities is now higher in real terms than the average of their prices back in 1980 (see chart).
The Cornucopians might argue that today's metals prices are due to the buoyancy of demand in the developing world rather than any cataclysmic shortages in supply. But the Malthusians might retort that man's famed ingenuity has not stopped prices from rising in real terms over an extended period. Place your bets.
Moving on ...
The Malthusians Are Back - Alex Trembath and Vijaya Ramachandran
Thanks to innovation and technological decoupling, an average American today is more than twice as wealthy as an average American was the year The Population Bomb was published, yet generates 30 percent fewer carbon emissions and uses 50 percent less land for their diet.
First, we need to look at this from the perspective of global per capita consumption-based CO₂ emissions (national emissions that have been adjusted for trade), rather than production-based emissions. Outsourcing manufacturing to other nations, for example, is an extremely innovative way of reducing energy and material throughput in a national economy. Looks like the authors' claims might actually hold up to some degree here, but they also ignore the legacy of historical emissions by the developed West.
As for the "less land" claim, the data is provided here for interest (agricultural land per capita). However, one needs to ask the question - how did we improve crop yield per capita across the world over the past few decades?
The answer provided in this article sort of ignores the context of reality we live in - it's a miracle not only brought to us through globalization, but much more importantly, through the fossil-fuel bonanza that truly powered almost every aspect of the Green Revolution. It is not a trend we can continue to rely on well into the future. To quote the United Nations' Food and Agriculture Organization:
"Energy-Smart" Food for People and Climate - Issue Paper (UN FAO) [PDF page 14, paper page 3]
The ‘green revolution’ of the 1960s and 1970s solved the food shortage problem at the time. This revolution was accomplished not only through improved plant breeding, but also by tripling the application of inorganic fertilizers, expanding the land area under irrigation and increasing energy inputs to provide additional services along the food chain. Today, the annual incremental yield increases of major cereal crops are declining and fossil fuels are becoming relatively more scarce and costly. Historical trends indicate an evident link between food prices and energy prices (Fig. 1). Further intensification of crop and animal production will be required to feed the world’s population, which is projected to expand to over 9 billion people by 2050. The report, “How to Feed the World by 2050” (FAO, 2009a) indicates that a 70 percent increase in food production compared to 2005-2007 production levels will be needed to meet the increased demand. This equates roughly to the additional production of around 1 000 Mt of cereals and around 200 Mt of meat and fish per year by 2050. These production gains are largely expected to come from increases in productivity of crops, livestock and fisheries. However, unlike the 1960’s and 1970’s green revolution, our ability to reach these targets may be limited in the future by a lack of inexpensive fossil fuels.
To paraphrase Catton: industrial humanity is a type of "detritivore" dependent upon the ghost acreage that non-renewable fossil fuels provide us. Ignoring matters of resource depletion and escalating EROI, we'll also see how long cropland per capita keeps up as climate change continues, and begins to fundamentally affect the stable climatic conditions required for human agricultural activities. For interest, here's Mark Lynas's take on what agriculture will look like in a 4 degree Celsius world.
Moving on ...
The Malthusians Are Back - Alex Trembath and Vijaya Ramachandran
Like Oreskes, the scientists at TOP and Population Connection insist that their proposed solutions to the population “problem” are non-coercive. They just want to nudge people in the direction of fewer people. Another of TOP’s priorities is to “reduce immigration numbers” to developed countries with low fertility rates. Additional ideas include proposals to lower government support for third and fourth children and for medical fertility treatments.
But Ehrlich said the same thing. “I’m against government interference in our lives,” he told an interviewer in 1970. How that sentiment squared with Ehrlich’s demands in The Population Bomb for “compulsory birth regulation” and “sterilizing all Indian males with three or more children” remains unclear. And it didn’t stop powerful institutions from taking his warnings about overpopulation literally as well as seriously. As Betsy Hartmann recounted in her 1987 exposé, Reproductive Rights and Wrongs, the Population Council, the International Planned Parenthood Federation, and other organizations funded fertility-reduction programs that, in tandem with sometimes coercive government policies, led to millions of sterilizations in China, India, Mexico, Bolivia, Peru, Indonesia, Bangladesh, and elsewhere. China’s one-child policy can be directly traced to Limits to Growth, the Club of Rome’s famous Malthusian screed warning of resource shortages and overpopulation.
In reference to the first paragraph, I think we can all fundamentally agree that, to quote myself from an earlier thread of mine, "we must find politically and socially acceptable ways to implement various non-coercive population policies to lower humanity’s impact on Earth’s biosphere and its natural wealth for the benefit of future generations and other species."
The second paragraph, however, is what we really need to engage with - it's a great point, and it needs to be addressed with principled sincerity and rigour. I have not read Hartmann, so I cannot pass judgment on that front; I can, however, pass judgment on the authors, as this quote appears to be lifted straight from yet another piece by Charles Mann (rather than working with Hartmann's material itself).
I will not contest their claims that coercive government policies led to millions of sterilizations around the world in the 1970s and 1980s, but I will note that this requires much further exploration than what the authors have prepared here today. However, as someone who believes in working with objective sources, I wanted to discuss some matters raised in a joint UN-WHO document titled Eliminating forced, coercive and otherwise involuntary sterilization: An inter-agency statement. As with all documents produced by the United Nations, this was a stellar read, and I fully recommend it to everyone. However, there's one specific argument I want to make today - that the authors are unfairly foisting the blame solely onto The Club of Rome. To quote:
Eliminating forced, coercive and otherwise involuntary sterilization: An inter-agency statement, UN-WHO Joint Document
During the period from the 1960s to the 1990s, coercive sterilization has been used in somecountries (including in Asia, Europe and Latin America) as an instrument of populationcontrol, without regard for the rights of individuals (57–59). A range of incentives or coercivepressures have been employed to secure agreement to sterilization, including offers offood, money, land and housing, or threats, fines or punishments, together with misleadinginformation. Under some government programmes, rewards have been provided forhealth workers who met sterilization targets, while those who missed the targets were atrisk of losing their jobs (7, 60, 61). People living in poverty, indigenous peoples and ethnicminorities have been particularly targeted by such programmes (7, 44, 61). In many countries, information is not made available in accessible formats and local languages, and informed consent is not obtained before these procedures are carried out (62). Moreover, these procedures may be carried out in unsafe and unhygienic conditions, without follow-up care(7, 60–62).
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Special care must be taken to ensure that every person makes a voluntary and informedchoice regarding the use of any contraceptive method (3). This is particularly important forsterilization, since it is a surgical procedure that is intended to be permanent.
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Accountability is central to preventing human rights violations and to ensuring that laws,policies and programmes are properly developed and implemented. Accountabilitymechanisms also assist in identifying individual and systematic human rights violations, asthey provide victims with an avenue to air their grievances and seek redress.
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Accountability, however, rests with states, to prevent coerced sterilization, to explicitly prohibit such practices, to respond to the consequences of these practices, to hold the perpetrators responsible, and to provide redress and compensation in cases of abuse.
I'll state my point directly: abuses of state power are the responsibility of the government conducting said activities (not the Club of Rome and their tireless work), and should be openly condemned wherever possible. However, if the authors intend to continue their condemnation of The Club of Rome, then they must - by example and logical necessity - also condemn Norman Borlaug himself for the same Malthusian sins contained within his 1970 Nobel Peace Prize Acceptable Speech quoted at length earlier.
I would hope that the authors and I are firmly in agreement that this is not their intent; and so, commend both Borlaug and the Club of Rome for their innovative research to address the human predicament and alleviate suffering across the world. Furthermore, I would gladly welcome the provision of more primary sources to confirm their statements or anything else they produce and publish in the future again.
Right, let's finish up with the concluding statements by the authors (my emphasis in bold for one last discussion point).
The Malthusians Are Back - Alex Trembath and Vijaya Ramachandran
And these concerns are being raised at a peculiar moment in human history. The total population of human beings on Earth is expected to peak and decline later this century, not because of war, famine, or disease, but because of secularly declining fertility. The challenge that nations including Germany, South Korea, Japan, and even India and China are dealing with today is underpopulation, not overpopulation. Migrants, particularly those who are young and skilled, will be crucial to generating economic growth in these countries. This makes the neo-Malthusian dismissal of technology, infrastructure, and growth particularly troubling. Supporting an aging population will require an economic surplus that has traditionally been supplied by a favorable ratio of younger workers in the labor force to retirees. As that ratio reverses, it is not clear how infrastructure maintenance and social-services financing will fare.
Given that the Malthusian dream—a peak in global population—is already in sight, one might think that single-minded efforts to further suppress population growth would wane. But the old population-control movement is still alive and well today.
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Despite all of my contention with what the authors have provided here today, they've made a remarkably great point that I'd like to explore. In a future defined by resource depletion and climate change in an increasingly inhospitable biosphere, how do we ensure that we are able to support an aging population in a future defined by the limits to growth? We're already seeing what's happening in France, but that pales in comparison on what is yet to come.
Future (and current) generations that will never enjoy the same quality of life as we do today, right now, so how on Earth can we possibly expect younger generations to calmly accept the burdens bestowed upon them by the older generations before them? When the reality of societal collapse truly sets in, and the costs of survival begin to escalate in a world of increasingly scarce resources, how can we honestly expect future generations to pay down the pensions (and debts) of those who left a ruined world behind for them to inherit?
For those of us who genuinely want to look forward to retirement, then we must genuinely embrace and consider this question and its ramifications. This inter-generational conflict that I've described is the greatest ticking time bombs in the developed world, especially if we do nothing to change the course of global industrial civilization for the benefit of all.
As an encore, one last quote:
The Malthusians Are Back - Alex Trembath and Vijaya Ramachandran
As The Atlantic’s Jerusalem Demsas put it, “Enough with the innuendo: If overpopulation is the hill you want to die on, then you’ve got to defend the implications.”
Enough with the misrepresentations: if criticizing perspectives on overpopulation is the hill you want to die on, then you've got to defend your arguments far more soundly.
And finally, to the authors: I don't want to breakthrough any more bullshit.
The Breakthrough Institute's Inconvenient History with Al Gore (2014), Paul D. Thacker (Harvard University - Edmond & Lily Safra Centre for Ethics)
While sometimes functioning as shadow universities, think tanks have been exposed as quasi lobbying organizations, with little funding transparency. Recent research has also pointed out that think tanks suffer from a lack of intellectual rigor. A case in point is the Breakthrough Institute run by Ted Nordhaus and Michael Shellenberger, which describes itself as a "progressive think tank."
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If you enjoy today’s meme and article, and if you also share my insatiable curiosity for the various interdisciplinary aspects of “collapse”, please consider taking a look at some of other written and graphic works (like this piece) at my Substack Page – Myth of Progress. That said, as a proud member of this community, I will always endeavour to publish my work to collapse first.
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2023.03.24 14:22 freakyfretty Data analysis with accounting degree

As an accounting graduate I want to start my career in business analysis but I don't know wgere to start. Please tell me the tools and courses I can learn to make a good skill set to get a job as an analyst. Thankyou.
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2023.03.24 14:21 SalernoXbox Dear BMW - Suck a fat one - Yours Truly, X3 30i owner

Owner of 2021 BMW X3 30i - 2 years of ownership
"The worst car I've ever owned"
Cars I've owned in the past - 2014 Mazda 3, 2020 RAM 1500 Big-Horn, 2017 BMW 340i GT, 2006 Audi A4, 2001 Honda Civic Lx , and currently the 2021 X3 30i xDrive.
Keep things short and simple
Fuel Economy - Claiming 12.6L/100km City/Highway combined which is already shit enough to begin with but I truly think that it's even worse than that. "Eco Pro" mode is bullshit, and I actually believe I would get better fuel economy with comfort than eco pro, even though it's absolute shit to begin with. My work is less than 4km away. And with NO outside of work driving, just going to work and back and staying home, it barely gets through 2 weeks. My 340i GT, with almost double the HP after stage 1 tune, I-6 engine, and nearly the same amount of cargo space, was giving me 11.5L/100km combined. How does BMW justify downgrading engines and getting WORSE fuel economy? ...
Engine - Gutless 4 cylinder turbo engine that claims on paper to have modest HP but it certainly doesn't feel that way. Also lags about 2 seconds when you push the gas down before the car actually gitty-ups which is something I've never seen in even my previous cars with a 4cylinder engine with no turbo. Makes it quite sketchy to make quick lane changes if someone is approaching that lane at high speeds, I have no trust in this car.
Cabin Space - Tiny AF!! Anyone who says this car has modest cabin space for an SUV must have only driven fiat's and Yaris's. Can barely fit 3 golf bags in the trunk without having to remove clubs from the bag. 7' Fishing rod pole goes through the trunk and touched the front center console. Knee space in the backseat is tight, and the X1 actually offers better leg room than the X3. Any camping or cottage trips I've done in the past it felt like I was playing Tetris to get everything to fit properly.
Technology - Would have been better off if this car had no tech at all. Sensors around car scream like nobodies business for the whole ride if there is any dirt or ice obstructing it.
Lane Assist - Spawn of Satan and I am confident this car has attempted to get me killed. First off you have to have your hand on the wheel at all times or it fully disables on you with NO warning, which I find more dangerous than letting the car keep itself in the lane. Also ... it sees a crack in the road and usually thinks it's a part of the lines, and will throw my ass into the other lane almost hitting the car next to me.
Adaptive Cruise Control - Adaptive my ass, even when you adjust the car distance settings, if someone comes in front of you into your lane, the car is so stupid that it slows down to half the speed, and it takes about 3-4 seconds for the car to realize everything is fine and for it to pick speed back up. Try pressing the accelerator or brakes to assist the car and it just disables on you. Almost like the car gets offended that you want to take a little bit of control.
Handling - The only decent part about this car, handling is pretty good at high speeds, although my 340i, mazda 3, and even the old Audi handled just as well.
Horsepower - Modest amount of HP but nowhere close to exciting. It's a mom-mobile of engine power without a doubt.
Price - BMW should be sued trying to charge this kind of money for this piece of shit SUV. The xDrive 30i should not exist, there should only be the I-6 version plain and simple. There are literally ZERO advantages of getting the 4 cylinder over the 6 cylinder, and frankly, I think it only being about 7-8 grand price difference, is absurd. This car should be at LEAST 15-20 grand cheaper than the X3 M40i which is better than this car in every way possible, and also has very similar if not the exact same fuel economy. Did I mention that both trims share the same engine bay? So in other words, what could have been more cabin space, gets put into the engine bay that is meant to hold the larger I-6 engine. Basically like saying my I4 moved into the same giant house as the fatter I6 that actually needs the space.
So to conclude, I'd like to tell BMW to kindly suck the fattest set of nuts for even repping such a money grabbing piece of shit vehicle. There's a reason why this particular model depreciates in value so quickly, why I'm in negative 10 grand in equity if I trade it in as opposed to all my other cars that I broke even if not made a penny or 2 after YEARS of driving them.
Don't make the same mistake I did and fall into a money pit, this car is good for ONE particular type of buyer, if you're rich and got the money to burn to buy your wife a nice little SUV for her to get around and get all her shit done with. That's it, I see no other type of people that I can actually say it would be a wise buy.
I'm getting nothing from writing this review, I don't expect my voice to be heard from BMW nor do I think they would care. But you have to think, there must obviously be something wrong when somebody has to go on reddit and vent about how shit their car is just to feel a little less stressed for one day for a change. This car has literally spoiled my mood for the whole day on many occasions just from merely driving it to work.. Without a doubt the WORST vehicle that I have ever got myself in. I can't wait to get myself out of this piece of shit car.
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2023.03.24 14:21 lovelylayout Jodi is an almond mom (and so much more)

TW: eating disorders just in case, also spoilered for mentions of Kent and Ginger Island

TLDR: Jodi is overwhelmed by her life and also affected by diet culture.

I've gotten lots of compliments on my flair and I wanted to take a minute to explain how I think about Jodi's character more in-depth. I love Jodi, I feel for her, and I think about her a lot. Almond-specific analysis will be near the end of this post.
"What do I do for fun? Hmm... That's a good question. I like sleeping."

Jodi is THE desperate housewife.

Domestic labor is labor. Home economics Family and Consumer Sciences is a legitimate field of study, and a complex one. Keeping house has so many moving parts, and the job is never done. Cleaning, cooking, budgeting, child care, and time management all have to be planned and carried out, and it's really difficult to get it all right all the time.
Jodi is under a ton of pressure, especially for the year she's alone, to raise her children right, spend the family's money right, keep the house right, and somehow also make time for herself. But she doesn't make a lot of time for herself, because she's overwhelmed.
What Jodi doesn't know (and what a lot of people who struggle IRL with the need to "do everything right" don't realize) is that feeling overwhelmed when faced with an overwhelming situation is a completely normal reaction. The person who feels snowed under by the demands of their life also usually experiences shame at not being able to achieve whatever unrealistic goal they've set.
Neither the IRL person nor Jodi realizes that the goals are unrealistic, because nobody ever comes out and says "hey, one person actually cannot do all this? maybe let's stop beating ourselves up for not being able to Do It All."
That's what "desperate" refers to in the phrase "desperate housewife." Desperation to achieve every task, to not let anything slip through the cracks, to not let anyone down who depends on you, to show up, to keep going and going day in and day out without ever really getting a break.
"Housework is frustrating because you're never finished. The day after I sweep the floor, it's dirty again."
"The food at JojaMart might not be the healthiest for my family, but with such low prices you'd be crazy to shop anywhere else!"
"I'm taking a break from house chores today. I'm taking the day off. If I don't spend any time outside, I'll go crazy!"
"If I was rich the first thing I'd do would be to hire a maid and a chef. My goodness, that would be nice!"
Girl needs a vacation (I'm always so happy to see her on Ginger Island once the resort is unlocked).

On Jodi's "lost youth"

"It's nice to have a family... but I'd be lying if I said I never long for the freedom of youth..."
"I had a dream that I had complete freedom, no obligation to anyone but myself... Then I woke up and realized I had a full day of house chores ahead of me..."
"We kind of rushed into our marriage, with Kent being a soldier and all... I hardly got a taste of youth and freedom, and now it's too late to ever go back. Just don't make the same mistake."
“\sigh*... Sometimes I dream about life on my own... without a family to look after. Is that horrible? Don't tell anyone.”*
Pining for lost youth is not an uncommon trope within the archetype of the desperate housewife, but it doesn't show up in every character. Clearly it does show up in Jodi, and her wishing for a different life is another thing she feels shame about ("Is that horrible? Don't tell anyone").
One thing that breaks my heart about Jodi is that she seems unable to just be herself. Her entire life is set up with a focus on her being of benefit to other people, and she feels like she's lost some of herself along the way.
She specifically mentions "freedom" so many times. Longing to feel freedom is something she probably can't talk to Kent about, since he was in an actual prison camp and the two situations are not at all on the same level.

Almond Analysis

What is an almond mom? An almond mom is one who is obsessed with looks and maintaining or losing weight to the point that her own eating-disordered behavior rubs off on her children. (I've heard steak dad or protein dad used to refer to the same phenomenon in fathers.) IRL this can look like: negative body talk about oneself or the child; placing moral value on certain foods; forcing the entire family onto the same diet when differing needs are present; and lots of other things.
Is Jodi really a full-blown almond mom? No, of course not.
She's trying her best to feed her family in a way that maintains their health-- Vincent wouldn't be excited about the lentils or boiled beets even if they were a once-in-a-blue-moon dinner, he's a kid and he just doesn't like lentils. I don't think Sam or Vincent have or are going to develop issues with food or weight. I don't think Jodi has an eating disorder-- what I do see in her dialogue, likes, and dislikes is someone who's affected by diet culture.
Jodi's Loved Items list only includes one item that is conventionally "healthy" and that's vegetable medley. Her other Loved food items are chocolate cake, crispy bass, eggplant parmesan, fried eel, pancakes, and rhubarb pie. Her unique Liked Items are eggs, fruit, and milk, with a couple exceptions in each category.
So she likes items that are generally regarded as healthy but loves items that are high in fat. As someone who's been in dieting spaces on the internet for two decades, that's a dieter if I've ever seen one.
At the movies her favorite concession is chocolate popcorn and her liked concessions include cappucino mousse cake, fries, ice cream sandwich, nachos, personal pizza, popcorn, and star cookie, again including fewer conventionally healthy items like the salmon burger and jasmine tea. Going to the movies is a "special occasion" where she's more likely to eat something outside the diet.
I also think it's funny that Jodi doesn't like mushrooms. Mushrooms tend to be polarizing in diet spaces, they're very low-calorie but a lot of people just don't like them enough to make them worth eating no matter how low-cal they are.
Sam has a dialogue about her cooking fish casserole, plus her Fish Casserole 4-heart event. Fish casserole sounds like the kind of do-those-ingredients-really-go-together diet concoction you see get popular now and then.
"Exercise is important for staying healthy. I always make sure to set aside some time for it. As a parent, I don't have much time to devote to myself. So I try and make every minute count."
The good news is that this and the end of the line "If I don't spend any time outside, I'll go crazy! Plus I don't want my legs to turn soft" are the only dialogues she has regarding looks/fitness. I've joked before about her shopping at Joja to get her steps in, but I don't really think that's the case. I think Jodi's relationship with exercise is far more typical than disordered.
She says she makes time for it because she knows it's important, but she doesn't seem to enjoy it. If Jodi posted on an IRL diet or fitness forum they'd advise her to ditch the aerobics class and find something she actually enjoys. Jodi does say she likes to be outside. She might enjoy hiking or something, but as you know if you've read this far, she doesn't have the time.
This concludes the longest post I've ever written about a video game, and if you read the whole thing I want to thank you for your time and wish you the highest possible luck day.
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2023.03.24 14:20 Consultant4u Legacy Cycle 407- 16: Calm seas and bright stars.

Legacy Cycle 407- 16: Calm seas and bright stars.
A special thanks to all of the CMDRs who are helping to keep Legacy Alive! You are the best and the FDevs should know that they have a loyal base in all of us.
Cycle Summary:
Last cycle saw us putting in the work to be successful. We forted well and ended up with a nice cushion of CC. We also did a good job staying on top of enemy undermining activity, quickly forting any systems they hit, staying ahead of them in other cases and ultimately wasting a lot of their effort. We overcame 6 control systems being undermined and as we expect our controls to be attacked every week, this is why scouting and reporting held merits is so important. CMDR Z, you are an inspiration my friend with your constant undermining of our systems.
And if it was not clear enough with us knowing that the PC Empire Hordes were busy in Live, there were no last-minute shenanigans or unaccounted for movements made b those who would normally come over to Legacy to wreak some havoc. There are big movements happening in Live this week again due to the shedding of systems by a Power which will not be named and so we expect Legacy won't be quiet for too long as the supporters of this power are looking to come thru the wormhole back to that they so deny is important. Big movements will be happening soon in Legacy as we look to the future of Winters, attempt to work with others within the community towards common goals and assist those in need; so individual CMDR progression is important to strengthen our fleets.
We're always going to need haulers for running merits and combat-capable pilots for multiple types of combat; so if helping out interests you, now is a great time to finish that engineering and perfecting that hauling or combat build. If you are an explorer and would like to help by dropping your data of the Galaxy, let us know and we can guide you to where we would use some of it for Factions we support for Winters.
Keep up the great work and always feel free to ask questions, we're here to help!
We ask a lot of you each week and appreciate all of the Hauling, Undermining, Intel and more you give and know you are not alone in the Legacy Universe.
As always CMDRs, if you want to support Winters/Hudson on Legacy thru Cooperation, Coordination and Communication, join our Discord today for all efforts: https://discord.gg/RvMegmW9yQ and of course THANK YOU to all of the Winters Supporters out there, known and unknown!! If you want to help but don't know how, please ask. Veteran commanders can help with Power Play mechanics, building up finances, or strengthening your fleet. This is a Chat-based Discord with an option to use voice and as independent supporters (Individual, Group, Squadron, etc) of Winters Legacy Powerplay, you do no answer to us or our Leadership, but assist when and where you can as you see fit to do so. We just ask that you follow the rules of play and keep communication open so we may better guide the goals of Winters/Hudson Powerplay together as a team.
Below, you will notice a big change of how we report the Individual Legacy Superpowers and hope this makes things easier to follow on a weekly basis.
Power Standings as of 23 Mar 3309
1. A. Duval: The Blue Haired Princess succeeded in her prep by dropping a whopping 35k merits into this system- a strange number of merits hauled, but hey, we guess someone wanted to reach a goal. Conversely, she has moved to the top spot again and as it seems that her activities on the Live side have kept her followers quite busy, we expect a little more of the same this week for a possible quiet week in the Empire’s realm as the coup on Legacy continues. She has one expansion on the table this week.
2. Mahon: The Alliance is still keeping that even keel and thus has dropped a notch in the standings. No expansions were pushed nor was anything defeated. There are no expansions this week.
3. Patreus: Someone must be feeling a sigh of relief in his inner circle as there has been no movement in his standings, while his expansion attempt did not reap any rewards. There seems to be a bit of hesitation, but maybe a strategic pause in this overall as there are movements being made, which could be beneficial to his territories and possibly his standing. He has one expansion on the table this week.
4. Hudson: The Federation President may have lost a system, but seems to be regaining some swagger as he was successful in his prep this week and moved up in the standings. Seems like Hudson supporters are taking advantage of this renewed energy to make some moves and let’s see if this weeks’ expansion is something to keep an eye on.
5. A. L. Duval: Momma has swayed her hips a bit, but not enough to be successful in getting her expansion, though she has jumped up a bit in the standings. This could indicate her awakening to the coup, or is it something else? Only time will tell. She has two expansions this week and our intel indicates that one of them is a system she wants under her control. Any opposition to this would be arbitrary and not without merit.
6. Grom: Nothing major to report here for this hollowed-out power as he dropped in standings and saw no activity. There are no expansions this week.
7. Winters: Not an easy week and not a hard week as our summary above indicates and we will see what this cycle brings to bear as we slide a little in the standings. There are of course, no expansions this week.
8. Yong-Rui: Our friend and natural ally seems to be bouncing back as well with a successful prep and a bump in his standings again. With one expansion on the board, we will see how this plays out in the short and long term.
9. Delaine: Our Anarchist friend managed to get one of his preps thru, but was not successful with his expansion, costing him his position in the standings it seems. He does have one expansion this week and as always, we will keep our distance and stay neutral in his efforts.
10. Antal: Our Utopian friend’s good fortune is still ongoing despite the huge drop in standings and may his followers rest easy. There are no expansions this week.
11. Torval: Granny has woken up from her slumber a bit and made a move once again for a system. Was there a delayed reaction with those delivered performance enhancers or did some of her supporters sneak thru the wormhole to give her a jolt of energy? Her sceptre is being waved around once again and she has an expansion to try and win. We may or may not oppose this expansion.
As always, we ask for representatives to establish communications for each of the above Superpowers for the Legacy Universe and all are welcome to join our Discord to open channels. Discord link here: https://discord.gg/RvMegmW9yQ
CMDRs, there is plenty of "SPACE" for us to share and grow as Superpowers- Let us keep our constituents, citizens and those under our care, in our minds first and foremost. Again, those of us supporting Shadow President Felicia Winters look forward to working with all interested Legacy parties in ensuring we have a stable Universe and are making our weekly call to have a meeting of all Legacy Superpower Community Managers sometime in the near future. We shall keep making this call till we have six or more representatives (a Delegation from each Superpower) and hopefully, we can look to work towards a way to grow our Communities even more.
Remember: Always Haul/Play in Open Play, Keep your heads on a swivel and Fly Dangerously!
"We should do what is right, not necessarily what is easy or popular."— Shadow President Felicia Winters

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2023.03.24 14:19 Broad-Math-3713 My (f26) Ex bf (m26) of 5 years that I live with wants to potentially fix our relationship while dating other people.

My (26f) Ex bf (26) demanded I move out to kinda change his mind but not really.
I'll start by saying I know the answer is to leave. I just am having so much trouble doing it. Please tell me the truth hard or soft to help me get my head on straight.
This is gonna be long do thank you for reading. My ex and I were together for about 5 years. The last two almost three years have been kind of hell of I am going to be honest. Or relationship started off strong loving and ideal . We had never tried at each other cussed at each other or really ever argued. It was all love. Then about 2.5 years ago just after he decided to stop seeing his son who I had been help raising with 50/50 custody for us to focus on the business we were trying to start. As one can probably guess we didn't and still have now executed and it has def taken it's toll. Anyway this is when his lying and cheating came out, and he even gave me a UTI from fcking some girl and coming home to fck me. I very dramatictly left when he lied to me about going to see this same girl again. I called the girl and him, and kinda went bizerk. When he ignored my calls, I packed my stuff including the game system that he played but I bought and our imac and left to my sister's. He came home to me not there the stuff gone and a broken tv. Long story short bc he couldn't get in contact w me or my siblings bc I blocked him and demanded they did too, when I stopped by later to gather more items and shower he didn't say a word to me a called the police. Long story short I was arrested and had to beat a DV case for the broken tv. Fast forward to the night after jail he turned my phone off and called CPS on my sister. A few days later he reached out to me every way possible begging me to come home. Like a dummy I did, and we ended up moving states together for two years. Honestly it was hell most days and at this point he was consistently telling me he wanted to move and us to break up. I usually cried , said I could change the things I did that bothered him and he always ended up staying. Mind you thins whole time he is getting caught doing something unfaithful in my eyes. Texting other women, saying he's single, and being on dating apps. At one point it gets so bad for us we basically pick up and move back to our hometown.
We have been back for about 5 months, have consistently paid rent late he has quite his job and consistently arguing. He constantly calls me his lady or girl just to get mad and tell me I haven't been his girlfriend fornover a year. Most recently I had an odd feeling that he was being unfaithful again, after months of being faithful and checked the usage log on our phone provider to see if had been talking to anyone. Of course I found a number being texted consistently ( even while I was at work working a 12 hour night shift and he asked me not to call him so he can sleep). I added the number tonmy contacts and downloaded Snapchat to see if I could find who it was and during this process found his secret Snapchat. I was infuriated and made a new Snapchat with the username fuckyouhisname and added him. I wake up in the next few hours to him talking so much shit about me to hisself. I don't say anything and let him leave . He texts me a messages telling me to leave him alone and he doesn't want to deal with my Bs. I respond telling him to go talk to 'Sally' . Long story short it escalates, I turn off his phone for like 20 min and threaten to call the police twice during this long day of an argument. I don't remember everything said but he did tell me I wasn't his gf, he owes me nothing and will continue to talk to other women bc he is single. Mind you just days ago he was telling me all about his loyalty to me and toegther or not he won't talk to other women as we live together.
I ended up feeling HORRIBLE about my actions and apologized bc I felt like I was allowing myself to be taken out of charecter. I had planned to leave this Friday and literally live in my car bc he demanded I leave and he hates me. My best friend said I can move out of state to her and will hold me down while I get back in my feet. As the day to leave got closer and the check from my job to buy a ticket I kept finding myself trying to figure out how to fix my relationship. I woke up and made bf because that and the dirtiness of our home is what he always tells me he disliked most about me. Knowing his love language is gifts I wanted to buy him a new game system. I tell him, while explaining house confused I am. Today he tells me that we should talk about what it would look like off I stayed. Saying I am trying to be his parent but if I stop and don't act physcho maybe we can figure something out until the end of the lease. When I inquired if he would still plan to keep tlking to other women he told me yes and that he isn't saying for us to get back together. That we need to become friend again first and maybe it can grow. I feel like that is bullshit. Like he shouldn't be entertaining anyone else being open to f*cking anyone else and should focus on fixing us so we can get back to his son. He tells me I am not deserving of him anymore and he wants vibes from other women. He also says we can't work at the same job ( which has been a part of our plan) and I can't have him on social media. Saying bc I am a distraction. Mind you, we have been having sex everyday but yesterday and I always ended up getting mad bc he will be on his phone texting what I assume and he had admitted is other women. And when I ask him not to do that around me gets upset with me. Even last night when he suggested w have a good night together and talk about everything in the morning I had to ask him to not be in his phone texting other women.and he responded saying he guesses he can turn his phone off after he tells them bye bc he's not just going to ghost them. Before you ask yes I spent the rest of my money buying him and myself two game systems and paying our past due rent. So I don't even have enough for a plane ticket anymore. How am I supposed to be doing all three loving things a gf does for us too fall in love again, butt he's dating other people? Or didn't feel fair.
Guys this isn't right , right? Like he just wants me here for the money right? Please tell me what I need to hear to freaking grow a pair and not act like the most insecure women out there. And btw I did try downloading dating apps hoping talking to other people would make me feel better since he is, but it did not work and I gate the idea of talking to any other men. Am I still here bche was my first and only or is that amyth? Thank you for reading and please help 🥲
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2023.03.24 14:18 NoneScan65 Deciphering the direction of the stock market after the confusing Powell speech

US stocks:
Another round of highs and lows, the SPX and DOW turned down in the middle of the day, and slightly recovered at the end of the day, the three major indices finally closed up, DOW and SPX rose slightly by 0.2%, the Nasdaq rose by a maximum of more than 1%. The market once went very strong, especially the Nasdaq almost touched yesterday's high, up by up to nearly 2.5%, to say that there are any reasons, I can only say that it is a different interpretation of the Federal Reserve's policy. Fundamentals see no big changes, the Bank of England as expected to raise interest rates by 25 basis points, the first jobless claims and a recent low indicates that the labor market is still tight, but probably because the Asian market went stronger, the optimism passed to the United States it.

It is necessary to say a few words about the UK CPI, yesterday's release of the UK CPI data a water of substantial exceeded expectations, CPI value and broke through the 10% integer; CPI in November last year after the peak had a continuous 4 months of decline, but in February there was such a big rebound, which is only in the European scope; this has to remind me of last October during the UK pension This reminds me of last October, when the Bank of England's measures were temporary QE, which is the same as the Federal Reserve's recent BTFP (BANK TERM FUNDING PROGRAM), the Fed's current behavior is like pumping water to the reservoir (QT) while opening a tap.

The U.S. financial system has many similarities to the U.K. and has taken very similar measures in response to the crisis, so will we see a sharp rebound in U.S. inflation numbers like the U.K.? I think this is a high probability event. Today's high market opening further reinforced my confidence in shorting, of course, if the U.S. stocks broke through yesterday's high, the stop-loss will still go to the stop, only I believe that ultimately the market fundamentals will PLAY OUT, I still take a position in HSD, no arbitrage and no position increase. I also mentioned in yesterday's replay potential other bank crisis did not contact, at any time may become a new mine, FRC today's trend also seems to echo my views, today FRC is also a high open low, plunging nearly 10%, driving the regional bank's ETF hit a new closing low of this round of plunges. There are still banks in the market that are worse run than SVB FRC, we just don't know yet where the next thunderbolt is going to come from.
US Dollar:

Continued to bottom out, but closed a small positive line with a long lower shadow, and is still hovering at the 102 integer mark; the dollar will rebound, but the overall downward trend should be difficult to change, if the U.S. financial system or Europe where another thunderstorm, the dollar as a safe-haven asset will still have funds to pursue in the short term, we just need to look at the general trend.
Gold:

Gold futures prices went back up to $2,000, jumping 1.2% and showing all the strength. The dollar didn't plunge today, but gold was unusually strong. The impetus for gold's surge is still capital's fear of potential risks and distrust of the existing financial system, so perhaps gold is about to say goodbye to the 1's and we'll see gold prices stabilize above 2000 in the long run. Technically, gold has recently turned on a high volatility mode and if the financial markets get any more wind in their sails, we are likely to see gold break through the August 2020 highs. Today gold stocks went very average, GDXJ only rose 2%, many of the gold producers we are familiar with in the case of gold surging, almost did not rise, at this point is a lot of money do not believe that gold can be maintained at high levels, I am strictly distinguish between trading and investment positions, from a trading point of view GDXJ a little head signs, this high volatility ETF retracement 5-10% is very easy to do.
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2023.03.24 14:18 Cyndercrys Where To Even Start?

I finally feel in the right headspace to write again (after going through an abusive marriage, consequent divorce, and health things), but with it comes feelings of jealousy, rejection, and misery. I've always wanted nothing more than to be a writer, get paid for my work, but I can't manage to do it.
Part of it is I'm NT: autism and ADHD. Things just don't click for me. I can't figure things out like other people. I struggle to finish things. It's awful, truly. I'm creative and a damn good writer but no one knows because I either can't finish anything or no one sees my work because I don't understand algorithms and tags.
"Be a freelancer!" I hear the comment section scream. Yeah, I don't know how. No one will help me. People always tell me that but no one helps. Freelance and full-time writers hide their secrets and never help no matter how much I ask or beg. It's always just "Go make money" or "I was lucky". I feel like people start at step 5 and not the beginning.
I want to be a writer so badly, full-time, freelance, as a career. But it'll just never happen because my brain doesn't work like it should and I can't get anyone to care enough to help me. (Nor can I afford all those courses or a mentor, since apparently mentor is a paid job these days)
Please. Just someone send me in the right direction.
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2023.03.24 14:17 Scary_Ad_8919 The first train line situation experienced in Korea as a black man

Hello. My name is Eric, a black man living in Suwon, one of the cities in Korea. And I'm a very unusual person who's black and doesn't have two legs.
I can't imagine a life without a wheelchair, and for me, an electric wheelchair is practically my foot, so I live a very different life from ordinary people.
But it hasn't been long since I started living in Korea. I decided to live in Korea for a while and came to Korea after organizing all my luggage in the U.S., so I'm still immersed in the charm of new Korea every day.
The reason why I came to live in Korea is actually my second life. If it weren't for that day's event, I don't think I would have existed in this world. I wasn't the one who was in the wheelchair from the beginning. Like everyone else, there are cases where they are injured or born with a disability due to an accident or accident that they didn't expect at all, and in my case, I'm a rather unlucky man who got into a wheelchair in a single accident overnight.

But even before I was in a wheelchair, I had a pretty tough life in America. As many people know, there's still a lot of discrimination against black people in the United States, and there's a lot of discomfort in everyday life, so big black men like me don't look good to others just by walking around some of the streets in the United States.

Of course, there are black people who can't control their anger and cause various accidents, but this error of generalization makes it very difficult for quiet black people like me to live normally in the United States.

Black people like me have a lot of stress living in the U.S., more than people in other countries think, to the extent that some restaurants have a notice asking them not to come in at all. But in my case, he was even more unlucky than this. Even black people with ordinary bodies are already treated differently, and I'm a black disabled man with a very special disability that requires a wheelchair.
I've been a boy who loves cars since I was very young. Like most boys, like robots and cars, I was an ordinary kid who loved mechanical play and assembling legos.

One thing I remember is that the parents themselves didn't exist. When I was born, my parents, who had already given birth to me, left me in a shelter in town and ran away.
The facility, which is neither a nursery nor an orphanage, was a shelter that provided meal services to some disabled villagers or used legal systems to help those in need of a living.
And I grew up with various kinds of education with the idea that he was my parents following the education of a teacher there. As the only black child there, I was bullied a lot by them when I wasn't that big. I couldn't escape anywhere because I was practically a family that lived together and ate and slept, so enduring such harassment made me a very patient person. Discrimination against blacks still exists, but at that time, it was more difficult for blacks like me to live in more ways because it was the past in time. Moreover, life is so much harder that a black man without parents can't even describe it. But the only teacher who believed in me at the shelter advised me to decide what I want to do as soon as possible and find my dream, saying that all of these things will always pass by without any discrimination. I've already reached the stage of serious thinking about what to do with a living since adolescence because I thought that if I got a job earlier or found my way there, it would be faster to escape there. And then one day, I was watching TV in a shelter, and I saw an American program about car racing, which is a very unusual type of car, competing for speed. And I still can't forget the heart that was beating so fast when I saw it. So I had a tremendous dream of becoming the only black racer in a short period of time, and I made a lot of efforts to achieve it. Until I could get a car and get a full license, I studied car racing theoretically and watched interview videos and lifestyle programs of people who were actually building their careers as car racers, and I was completely immersed to be just like them. At that time, the teacher at the shelter who helped me without my parents' help or money supported my dream a lot by continuously purchasing what I needed. However, my friends who bullied me in the shelter said, "I've never seen a black car racer," adding, "What kind of car racer is a car racer like you who can't drive?" and added to the intensity of bullying to frustrate me. That's how I went to one of the fourth-division car racing clubs myself when I turned 20. However, the club, which was in the fourth division, also said, "Black people don't accept it," and only told me to leave right away, saying that I could never become a racing player. I was very frustrated at the moment, but I couldn't give up there. Since then, for more than six months, I've been kneeling down to hire me to do anything, picking up trash at the club's main gate and seeing amateur car racers seen over the security gate. Six months later, one of the owners invited me personally, saying that I was a very strong person and that he wanted to talk to me. And that very day I was hired as a janitor to clean and manage the racing circuit that the club had. Thinking that one day I could run on the circuit, I spent more than two years in the fourth division club as a circuit cleaner. Until then, except for a few days when I was sick, I went out earlier than usual and started sponging to learn everything with the utmost effort I could, watching amateur athletes drive in person or memorizing the circuit.
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2023.03.24 14:17 adartagnan [The True Confessions of a Nine-Tailed Fox] - Chapter 85 - A Happy, Blessed, and Functional Family

[The True Confessions of a Nine-Tailed Fox] - Chapter 85 - A Happy, Blessed, and Functional Family

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Blurb: After Piri the nine-tailed fox follows an order from Heaven to destroy a dynasty, she finds herself on trial in Heaven for that very act. Executed by the gods for the “crime,” she is cast into the cycle of reincarnation, starting at the very bottom – as a worm. While she slowly accumulates positive karma and earns reincarnation as higher life forms, she also has to navigate inflexible clerks, bureaucratic corruption, and the whims of the gods themselves. Will Piri ever reincarnate as a fox again? And once she does, will she be content to stay one?
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Chapter 85: A Happy, Blessed, and Functional Family

Within one month of adopting Lodia’s family, I had learned two things. One: The Kohs were a happy, blessed, and functional family. Two: Happy, blessed, and functional families left no room for a well-intentioned sparrow to improve their lives.
Although Lodia’s mother had died several months back, her father and grandmother had stable, well-paying jobs and weren’t doing anything to jeopardize them. They neither drank nor gambled, nor had workplace meltdowns, nor spent lavishly to cope with their grief. (Presumably Lodia’s father, at least, felt grief.)
No, they spoke politely, carried out their duties, brought their wages home, budgeted and tracked their expenditures, and paid their servants on time. They even owned their bizarre house-on-stilts! I couldn’t find the slightest hint of financial difficulty!
As for improving their personal lives, Lodia’s father, Rohanus, could use a new romance, but he was just so – nice. That was his defining characteristic. Niceness. Admittedly, it made for a more peaceful household than if he, say, fought with his mother or beat the cook, but it did lead to a distinct lack of variety. Who’d marry such a bland man?
On the other hand, Lodia’s grandmother, Missa, wasn’t not-nice, but I’d describe her as more…pointy. Some grandmothers were warm and huggable (according to children’s tales, anyway). Not the Maga Architecta of Lychee Grove. Like Mistress Jek, she didn’t take any nonsense from anyone – but unlike Mistress Jek, she rejected aforementioned nonsense in the most courteous way possible. Actually, in that sense, she reminded me of Aurelia.
I didn’t want reminders of Aurelia.
Mostly because they led to reminders of Taila and Bobo and Stripey and – nope, not thinking about that. I’d already made up my mind to give Lychee Grove a shot.
Since Rohanus was hopeless and Missa needed no help, I’d see what I could do about Lodia.
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“Loddie! Loddie! Art thou home – urp! Uh, good day, Mistress Fan.”
Taking off from Lodia’s shoulder, I flew to the window that overlooked the street. The cook had just thrown open the front door and was scowling at a young man. He was returning a winsome smile.
Oh hey! It was that “Katu” whom I’d seen in my first life as a sparrow! The young man who’d been sent to the market to buy green onions and ended up spouting treason instead. I settled down for another round of street entertainment.
The cook wasn’t nearly as happy to see him. “Master Len Katulus. Why are you shouting up at windows? The whole world can hear you.”
On cue, Lodia’s baby brother woke up and started wailing. Unfortunately, the wetnurse was watching him upstairs, which meant that only the ceiling separated him from me – and he was loud. Next, the baby who lived next door heard him through the shared wall and joined in. I hopped from side to side, wishing I could clap my wings over my ears.
Behind me, Lodia laid aside the mirror cover she’d been embroidering.
Since his smile obviously wasn’t working, Katu swept a florid bow. “Forgive me, Mistress Fan. I bear tidings of great import, and in my excitement, I fear I have offended.”
Fancy phrasing failed to impress her. “Tidings of great import? For whom, pray tell?”
His eyes widened as if he couldn’t believe that she needed to ask such a question. “Why, for Miss Lodia, of course! The fair and gracious Lady Anthea hath come to visit the Lady of the Lychee Tree once more!”
Ugh, seriously? Again? Weren’t there other tree spirits for that raccoon dog to harass?
Lodia, however, did not share my disgust. “Lady Anthea?” She pattered across the room to lean out over the sill. “What news, Katu?”
Surrendering, Mistress Fan stepped back and waved the young man into the house before he could hold an entire shouted conversation on the street. By the time Lodia hurried down to the kitchen with me riding on her shoulder, Katu had already found a chair and draped himself over it. Mistress Fan was opening a jar of preserved plums and picking out the largest ones to serve him. When she saw us, she redirected her ire at me.
“Lodia, how many times do I need to tell you? Don’t let that dirty sparrow into my kitchen.”
“Forgive me, Mistress Fan.” Lodia took several steps closer to Katu, putting more distance between me and the cook.
At her arrival, Katu leaped to his feet and swept another dramatic bow. A scrap of parchment fell out of his sleeve, and he snatched it and stuffed it into a pocket. But not before I recognized the handwriting.
Ha. Why did it not surprise me that our resident political firebrand and forgetter of groceries also wrote love poetry?
“What news, Katu?” Lodia repeated. “What news about Lady Anthea?”
“Why, that she desires to dress as we do while she is here! Dost thou not see, Loddie? If thou send her something and it pleases her, then she may take thee to court! Thou canst speak to the Queen!”
“To the Queen? Truly?” At first her face lit up, but it clouded over almost at once. “Oh, no, Her Majesty would never speak to the likes of me. And there are so many young ladies in Lychee Grove who have so much more talent than I. Lady Anthea would never wear anything I could make.”
“Of course she will, Lodia! If she has eyes, she will! And once thou arrive at court, thou can make the Queen listen to thee. I know thou canst!”
“Humph,” grumbled the cook. “Wasn’t it thou who called the queen a ‘dreamer’ and her court a ‘troupe of traveling jesters’?”
(If it consisted of courtiers like Anthea, I agreed.)
Unabashed by his own inconsistency, Katu declared, “Be that as it may, ‘tis a chance for Lodia to – urp!” At the cook’s death glare, he cut himself off. “Loddie, thou must send Lady Anthea a token at once!”
Lodia gulped. “Unsolicited? Oh, no, that would be too…too…. I’d be shamed if such a great lady laid eyes on my work….”
Wow, Lodia really was the anti-Taila, wasn’t she? Not only did she lack the confidence that her handiwork could impress Anthea – and knowing Anthea, it would – but she didn’t even want to try?
All right. I knew what I had to do.
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I could have spoken directly to Lodia. Pretending to be a spirit hadn’t worked out so badly last time. But for this life, I had a different idea.
Normally, I left right after dinner and returned in the morning. This evening, after eating rice grains twice (courtesy of first Lodia and then her grandmother, who didn’t realize I’d already been fed), I perched on a shelf in the sitting room and preened my feathers. This, I believed, should indicate that I was becoming even tamer.
“Grandmother,” Lodia whispered. “She’s staying.”
Missa glanced up from the blueprints for a new pavilion. “Indeed,” she agreed with a smile. “Don’t stare too much. Thou wilt scare her. Thou should think of a name for her.”
“A name.” Lodia sank back into her chair and purposely looked away from me, then peeked out the corners of her eyes.
I was curious what sort of name she’d come up with. Whatever it was, it had to be step up from “Mr. Turtle.” Or, in this case, “Mr. Sparrow.”
“Oh, what shall I name thee? Shall I ask Katu tomorrow?” (Here she ignored a chuckle from her father, who obviously expected an unpronounceably grandiloquent suggestion from the poet.) “The feathers on thy head are honey colored…so Honey?”
That wasn’t a bad option. I cheeped at her.
“Or…they look like a cap on thy head. Cap? Dost thou like that?”
I cheeped again.
“I could also name thee…Cheep – no, that sounds too much like ‘cheap.’ Chirp? Peep? Pip?”
Not exactly the most original of names, but any of them would do. I cocked my head from side to side, stared at her with my bright, round eyes, and continued to cheep. The feedback seemed to encourage her.
“I like Pip,” put in Rohanus.
She bit her lip, looked at him uncertainly, then back at me. “Pip?”
Well, it came surprisingly close to “Piri.” I cheeped and hopped, towards her this time.
She broke into a smile. “Pip it is! Here, Pip.”
She stretched out a finger, and I hopped onto it and met her eyes. With a gentle fingertip, she stroked the top of my head and back. I cheeped at her some more, making her smile grow broader.
All right, befriending and influencing Lodia was off to a good start! Now for part two!
///
After the family had gone to sleep, I left the box that Missa had prepared for my bed and flew upstairs. Lodia’s sleeping figure, in the same room as Baby Silvus and the wetnurse, was easy to identify. I landed on her pillow, used my beak to pull strands of hair away from her ear, and whispered into it.
Lodia…. Lodia….
I made my voice sound distant and mysterious, trailing off at the end.
She stirred, although her eyes didn’t open. “Mmmmm?”
I nearly said, “Listen to me,” but I caught myself. Lodia…. Lodia…. Heed my words….
Look at me, picking back up the older speech style even after spending so much time in the Claymouth Barony!
“Mmmm!” she complained and flopped over, nearly crushing me.
I backwinged hastily. Hmm. This wasn’t working as well as I’d thought it would, but I persevered. (After all, I wasn’t Anthea. I didn’t have the attention span of a raccoon dog.)
I put a slight edge into my tone. Heed my words, Koh Lodia. Thou hast talent for all with eyes to see. Believe in thyself. Do not clip thy own wings. I desire to see thee fly.
All right! That sounded appropriately divine and inspiring, right?
Before she could flop over again and crush me to death, I lifted off from her pillow and returned to my bed.
I’d see what effects I’d had in the morning.
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In the morning, Lodia didn’t act any different. She didn’t say a word to anyone about the mysterious voice that had addressed her in the middle of the night. After her usual breakfast of rice porridge with pickled cucumbers, boiled peanuts, pork floss, and fried wheat gluten, she took up her embroidering, also as usual.
Hmm. I guessed I’d have to try again.
///
Koh Lodia. Koh Lodia.
“Hmmm?”
Thou hast talent. Thou wilt please the gods if thou would let thyself fly.
“Mmmmm.”
Rustle. Flop.
And I had to backwing again before she crushed me.
///
This went on for several more nights, by the end of which I was frazzled and ruffled, not to mention sleep deprived, and Lodia even more so.
“Eeek!” she yelped.
Dropping her mirror cover, she squeezed her thumb. She’d stabbed herself under her nail with her needle.
I winced too, in sympathy. No one had ever jabbed needles under my nails, of course, but I had seen it done and observed that it was extremely painful.
My expression must have been pretty odd on a bird, because she blinked at me. “Pip, art thou – perchance – a spirit?”
Sigh. I had all the subtlety of a rampaging Taila these days, didn’t I? What repeated reincarnations had given me in my capacity to empathize with people(ugh, I hated the phrase), it had taken away in my ability to manipulate them. It was as if the soul held only so much room for personality.
I rolled my eyes. At Flicker and the Bureau of Reincarnation, but Lodia misinterpreted it.
“Forgive me, spirit! I meant no offense!”
Sigh. Why did she have to be such an anti-Taila? She’d be so much easier to work with if she’d develop an opinion or throw a tantrum from time to time. If she wouldn’t be this quiet little bowl of plain rice porridge.
All right. Let’s work on your presentation. Say it again, but not like you’re scared I’ll peck you.
“Eeek! You talked! Eek!”
The second “eek” was because when she jumped, she knocked her fabric scissors off the table.
Sigh. We had a long way to go.
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2023.03.24 14:16 Evening_Peach_1998 Am I overreacting?

Am I overreacting? Is my (F-39) husband (M-42) over sharing?
Background…Together 19 years, married 12 with ten year old twins together. We’ve been pretty happy for the most part but lately we’ve hit some potholes.
There has been some issues between us and we’re both in counseling over it. He is also in group counseling. He shared these problems with his group. And, of course, it was one sided and these people are kinda like friends now, so naturally they have more sympathy towards him.
Afterward he mentioned some of the negative comments they made about me but nothing in detail. When he started I asked him not to discuss me or our deeply personal/private issues in the group just with the doctor.
So here I am now. Worried that we may see these people in public someday. I also have a job in which I do not wish to have these stories floating around as my field puts me in the community as a recognizable person.
Now I have full blown panic attacks every time he is with his group. And if I say no more talk about me then it’s me who is selfish and not letting him get what he needs out of counseling. I can’t win.
What kills me is he and his doctor have mused how it seems to be bothering me a lot. Ya don’t say? Like I cannot be the only person alive who thinks sharing deeply personal matters with random strangers is not cool? I get talking to a doctor. This, I’m not ok with and that apparently doesn’t matter.
tl;dr: I want to be supportive but I also want my feelings to be considered. What do, Reddit?
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